AJ and I having discussion about the Talladega crash and the blog of my opponents as a whole. (Chamber match RP 2.)

Ridgeway, Virginia. Saturday 25th October (Offline)

It was a week on from AJ having a nasty crash at Talladega Super Speedway race and I was concerned for him, wondering how his motive was going into this race tomorrow. Especially I know he has always liked Martinsville Raceway track. I was apart of that race and I kept checking on the radio how AJ was because I was helping him to win so bad, until a driver, Erik got into Noah and then got into AJ. Not Noah's fault whatsoever, it was Erik for not moving out of the way. So I went to his motorhome, had his son Aero and his wife Tara with him for the race, along with his dog Xena.

Very close family they were and I was proud to be AJ's best friend. Anyway, I decided instead of him coming to my motorhome because I had one wrestler come there yesterday because of a match elsewhere we have tomorrow, the point was my focus was to get more playoff points. I got some at Talladega for winning that race. I know that AJ did want to talk to me as he usually does.

So I left my motorhome, knowing that AJ wanted to talk to me and I certainly did with him after what happened last week. I stood outside of his motorhome after knocking it as I saw Tara and Aero who I waved as they were off to do their adventure, such a cute kid Aero was with his custom made gravedigger truck car from Monster Jam. Tara told me to go inside so I did as she took Aero out I assume to look at the racing cars in the garage.

I only had two hours before I had to do Xfinity Series practice and qualifying so it gave me perfect time to talk to AJ who was my best friend as well as Justin who was doing Modified's as well this year for dirt racing. I had such a blast with Modifieds racing last night that was on tarmac and I got the driver to drive the modified car I could keep back to my Chicago home. Anyway I sat in the living room waiting for AJ. Then he came out a minute later and sat with me as we shook hands and I asked him a question.

Konrad Raab: “How in gods name are you mentally fit enough to do this race, after almost being injured or worst case situation, almost died?”

AJ: “Look man, I know what I signed up for. I admire that you're a good friend to care so much about me, even came to my house to check on me, but I'm just a little sore and was gathering my breath.”

Konrad Raab: “I was really concerned like I know you must be with me when it comes to wrestling and driving cars, but think of this to yourself, would you rather die doing something you love or die of illnesses?”

AJ: “You know what? I never thought of it that way. I guess that's why along with your passion for racing that you do this?”

I nodded as I saw that AJ was alright and it had been on my thoughts the entire time as I hated that it would happen to anyone, even got a little freaked out when Ryan got into a nasty crash at Daytona a couple of years ago. I saw that AJ still was a little shaken up about the crash. But him doing the race a week after that took guts.

AJ: “But I got this question to ask you since I did want to discuss this with you and I sent Tara and Aero away because I know what we'll talk about is not for Aero's ears to hear, but why the hell would you want your last ever PPV match to be in a chamber match? Don't you want to go out on a high?”

Konrad Raab: “This is me going out on a high AJ. Something I've wanted to do since two thousand and sixteen. Back then when I was last in the chamber match, I was in a state of suffering from my father's death. It was later on after his death that I discovered the shitty things he did to me. You're so lucky how your dad loves you.”

AJ: “Oh, is that why you have anger issues because of the stuff your dad did to you?”

Konrad Raab: “Yes. He tried to burn me, beat me and let bullies pick and beat the shit out of me because he didn't want me to fight back. That's partly why I got into the wrestling business also was to show my dad I could fight back. He didn't allow me to do that.”

It was the first time since we've become friends that I told AJ this story. He knew everything, including The Jackals split up and he knows the history with Kandis, Tommy and Drake, including Minerva who I still had feelings for to this day. But I knew at the same time, I had to shut those feelings down at times and moved on with my life. But AJ told me a story that he told in the media before.

AJ: “I'm forever grateful that my father supported me with my racing career. He had to take mortgage of his homes three times just to support my racing career.”

Konrad Raab: “It's why you've earned your spot on the racing grid because you earned it.”

AJ: “Yeah I did. Anyway, isn't the chamber match way over the top, considering you're in the running for the Xfinity Series championship?”

Konrad Raab: “No, because the match is happening after that. I wanted this because I wanted my career to finish with brutal and violent match because that's been the best thing of my entire career was to be put in violent matches. When I was the nice guy, which ironically was how I wrestled in the last chamber match I was fucking boring. Since I developed a violent side, this is what I want and who I am.”

Which was shocking to AJ, considering how restrictive I was on punching drivers which I couldn't do because of my wrestling contracts that I wasn't legally allowed to do so, unless it was self defence like some drivers experienced with me and they got a lesson from hell to pick a fight with me. So they learned not to mess with me ever again.

AJ: “Of course and after hearing about your dad story, I understand. But it seems that you only want to do the match from the show discussions you had to make people bleed.”

Konrad Raab: “I do because I want to be violent and make people bleed as that's fun for me to do. I bring weapons to make it even more violent and dangerous. Risks over rewards anyday of the week in my opinion when it comes to wrestling because I want reckless and violent wrestling. I want to make people bleed.”

AJ: “I guess I can understand that, along with you burning people.”

Konrad Raab: “I was told to tone that crap down unfortunately as I went way too far apparently, like running people over with cars that a lot of wrestlers have done in SCW isn't considered going over the top as burning people does. I want to burn my victims, especially Drake and Tommy who deserve it, but not been able to as of yet unfortunately.”

AJ got me a drink of Celsius as I opened the can and drank some of it, giving me some breathing room, as much as AJ needed last week at Talladega, where I almost saw a death in racing for the first time. Crazy how AJ survived that along with other drivers who have serious crashes at races, but it reminded me how much more dangerous racing was compared to wrestling. Something a lot of wrestlers don't realise that I was going to bring up in my video.

AJ: “I hear and understand you want this match. I just wanted to get to details as it seems you want your career to end in a bloodbath, filled with violence and rage that you want people to have for and against you.”

Konrad Raab: “I do because it's fun, it's even more fun when titles aren't on the line or shit like that people wanted to have. But it'll be pointless for me if I hold the title that I'd vacate it immediately. Maybe for others, they can go for titles, but for me, I'm doing it because I want to and I will show the world that you don't need wins and losses bullshit. That's dull and who cares.”

AJ: “I think you should care a little, but I do understand why you don't want to care for that anymore because you want to go out on a high and I respect that. I respect that you want to retire from wrestling in SCW the way you want it than having classic clean matches.”

Konrad Raab: “Except for Colleen who I have no respect for since she was never a deserving champion, I see violence in everyone else. I've not seen it with my own eyes with Colleen and Kim was the only reason why she had violent title matches. That's why me and Kim Williams are so close. Xander, Drake and Tommy, they are opponents I wanted to face. Colleen wasn't on that list.”

I knew I had to get going pretty soon as AJ was due his wife and son to come back to the motorhome and I wanted to make sure something that I was about to ask AJ as I stood up and took the rest of the Celesis drink with me as I was about to leave.

Konrad Raab: “You sure you're able to do this race?”

AJ: “Yeah, I'll be fine. You better get going.”

AJ was right, I did as I left his motorhome and I went straight to my motorhome to change into my gear to get ready to race against Connor, Justin and Jesse for the championship which it turned out to be the case that it was the four of us as Justin won the Xfinity Series race at Martinsville and the other two had enough points to make it to the final four championship showdown.

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Chamber showdown for my retirement blog (Online)

“You know, I love how wrestlers moan and bitch about violence and being hurt from moves in the ring and weapons they get struck with that I wonder how all of you would deal with the dangers of doing motorsport? Motorsport is the most dangerous sport of them all and you know why? Because you never know if you'll survive the race. You never know when death comes as it can happen at anytime. As I experienced with my friend who laid on the track for five minutes, wondering if he was able to move, but he did managed to do so, even if he was in pain.

Moving on however to why I wanted this chamber match. Obviously because I didn't want boring regular one on one or tag matches and I certainly did not want to walk away, not facing Tommy and Drake, as much as certain Colleen bitches and complains about it. Fact is guys, I appreciate all of you that volunteered to be in this match with me for the last time to spill all of your blood with pure violence and grit with weapons you all are able to use in this match to spice things up.

Starting with Drake. I know I was pissed off with you because you interrupted the match with Colleen which was boring to me anyway and thought, you would run away without getting my hands on you. But when I realised you signed up for this purpose, I had a massive smile on my face, knowing I would get that opportunity. You were a mastermind for the team to be honest, a guy that had morals so to speak that wouldn't cross certain lines and a guy who could've been a champion in SCW, but you're a threat and that's no word of a lie, despite my hatred to you. But it's because of those comments you made about me being a weak link that really made me so mad. I still haven't gotten over it and it's why I wanted to beat you down. I hated you for those comments and I hate you now that I want to rip your teeth out. Because you're the biggest quitter out of everyone in this match.

Tommy Valentine is someone I wrestled before when I was in my weak phase of myself, my pretend self that I preached against violence and preached against using weapons. That was not me, it was pathetic and you defeated me then. I admire that you came out and attacked me the right way to say, I'm in the chamber. I admire everything you've done here, but what I don't admire is agreeing with that son of a bitch and I know you must be mad with me on when I almost burned Kandis, I want to burn Drake as well, but I want to burn you as well because all of you burned me deep and I can't wait to bust you open. You and Drake are the ones I want to bust open and bleed the most.

Xander, what can I say? I mean the thought of us having a match against each other was something I never thought possible. But you're the guy that's in this match for the right reasons, to let your anger out. I admire that monster that you want to let out, the executioner because this nice guy phase, that's not you. You're just catering to the crowd, trying to please people. But it also cost you many matches. We should've had a one on one match for that world title match and I wanted to beat the fuck out of you as you did with me. But I knew what I fought then wasn't the real you. I'm glad you've got a purpose to be in this match with me and I gladly take it on.

I have no idea why you're in this match to begin with Colleen. Because out of everyone that wanted to be in this match, I'm stumped on why you wanted to be in the chamber. Since the matches we've had, I've not seen one ounce of violence from you. Sure, you were the underground champion for sometime. Props to being champion for a year I guess is the only positive thing about you to say, along with demanding to be in this match with me. I thank you and give you credit to have a pair of tits here, but the only reason why you lasted so long is because of Kim. Kim made you relevant with the championship. Otherwise, you're title run with the Underground belt would've been forgotten as you barely fought anyone else for it. You weren't the most violent of champions either. Also if you want a title match, then you don't belong in this match because wins, losses and wanting to win titles is boring. Go and seek Adrenaline and US champions then, the divisions you belong quite frankly. There's nothing about you that I feel that you'd want to make me bleed with me. Nothing that I see you do that will make me bleed. I guess I experience that in the match to see how violent you are.

I don't need to second guess what Kim William's goal is at all as I can predict that she will let every ounce of violence with me and she makes everyone remember who she is each and everytime and she doesn't care for wins and losses, well part of her does care with the championship, but she consistently wants to be a violent champion. I know that Kim would always make things violent like I know Drake, Xander and Tommy will, although I'm just questioning on why you want to be champion so bad. Like you can crave for violence by making the so called boring Adrenaline tournament to make it violent and bloody for you. That's what I tried to do with Colleen to test her skills with her violent level. I don't know how you can lose and respect her though, but that's just me personally.

I don't need championships or goals anymore like all of you do because this is my goal, to batter and make all of you bleed. I want to batter all of you because this is my fun of wrestling. This is my fun of making everyone suffer because I assure you that no wrestler that's retiring from wrestling in any company would dare to cause chaos and violence. I assure you that you don't know anyone else that would dare to risk their life both in and out of wrestling as much as I have. This is my show of wanting to showcase my violent skills instead of that weakling Iceman I was that I was pretending to be nice.

But I'm not gonna be nice, as much as I've said things positive about you all because I'm so thankful for this and so thankful all of you want to be in this match with me so I can batter and beat the shit out of all of you one last time on my last ever PPV appearance for SCW because I'm not coming back. I got NASCAR Cup Series career to focus on next year that I'm doing full time which is the reason why I'm retiring here. Since I couldn't do only Breakdown show only appearances.

I can't wait for this match and I can't wait to batter you all because wins and losses, don't mean a damn thing here and I wrestle because of what Xander said, I use wrestling to get my anger out and I use wrestling so I can show the world that I can fight back. Because holding me back from fighting along with my past, along with Jackals calling me a weak link is why I'm Burned In Blood and I will bloody the entire ring and I will bloody everyone in the match and that's what matters to me.

Along with being a fucking animal, not a monster in the ring because animals who are in the cage are more dangerous than monsters. I want to be a fucking animal that everyone remembers Konrad Raab by, not some titles, not some wins and losses to remember me by, but by what I've done to make a name for myself. I thank you all for the ride of blood and fire that you all will witness with me because I wrestle for anger, violence as a way to express myself that's not going to get me arrested. I will go out and achieve my goal of making you all bloody all over the ring and fuck your body parts up with weapon shots too. 

That's my dream match for my ending of my career in SCW and I'm going to enjoy the best match I'll ever have in SCW. Enjoy everything I do to all of you and thank you all for taking part, but I will end up the victor of unleashing the most violence and most blood without actually winning or losing the match to do so.”