SCW Underground Title Contention RP Part 2: Discussions on mountain climbs, Crevasse Rescue training, reaction to Trios Tournament loss, secret to Ginny and Opponent discussions.

Bristol, Tennessee. Friday 15th March. (Offline)

Granted, this was not a race weekend for the Xfinity Series I was racing for a championship, which confused Ross Barnes because it was unusual for me to do a Cup Race. Still, he should know by now I will end up doing them, along with ARCA Menards Series races in the future and one Truck Series race next weekend because it was a road course, something I must get better at. Still, I felt good about getting my hands on Enigma and teaching him that I was also someone he could see as a threat. I was not afraid of Enigma and wasn't scared of challenging him for a match.

It was an exciting prospect, as was my future. Still, that can be put aside for now, at least, and I know Jacob certainly wasn't happy with me when I made the challenge. Ross knew I was far away from that goal of being ready to face Selena Frost. Anyway, I was expecting a visit from Ross, and I provided the Rockstar Energy drink laid out in front of him when he came to my motorhome, as he's got a permanent VIP pass now.

I was cleaning everything away, and I wanted Jasmine to come and watch me race, but she wanted to do skateboarding training, which I can understand, seeing she's got the Olympics to worry about. Anyway, I knew he would tell me to climb more mountains, as Jacob pretty much gave away a bit of a spoiler last week while climbing Pikes Peak, but he didn't state the location.

I wasn't looking forward to the meeting, and god knows how Ross is going to react after I've challenged Enigma instead of Selena like he wanted me to do, but I knew I wasn't truly ready for her, and she didn't seem the type of opponent I gave a fuck facing right now. Heck, I'm likely the only wrestler in SCW that doesn't give a fuck about Selena Frost because I know she won't do anything to me violently, and I laugh at wrestlers taking offence on what she says, does and the protection she has.

While patiently waiting for Ross, I started thinking about what I would do with Enigma when I returned. I didn't have too long to think, as there was a ring on the doorbell of my apartment. I got up and walked towards the door, letting Ross in. I shook hands, walked in, and closed the door.

Ross Barnes: "I forgot about you doing some Cup Series races."

Konrad Raab: "It's because the team know I'm damn good at short track racing, and I help them with setups every week for those races. Wait until you know I'm doing a Truck and ARCA Menards races this year, too."

I prefer Ross not knowing about the main reason why I was doing some Cup Series Races of me being a full-time Cup Series driver in two thousand and twenty-six, and I know he'll find out next year, possibly this year, but that's nothing to be concerned about right now. Of course, I know Ross wasn't here for that discussion because I don't have mentality problems in NASCAR.

Ross Barnes: "Of course, we aren't here to discuss NASCAR, are we?"

Konrad Raab: "I supposed you're disappointed in me for not chasing Selena Frost when I returned, right?"

Ross Barnes: "Somewhat. I say that because, yes, you aren't ready to face her mentally, and you still have a long way to go, but at the same time, Jacob was right; it was a perfect opportunity for you to step outside of your comfort zone."

Konrad Raab: "Part of it is also because of who the champion is, which I'm sure you heard over the radio about my feelings about that."

Excellent, now even Ross, as I expected, wanted me to confront Selena to challenge her for the World Title, but that was difficult because I just didn't care or pay attention to Selena's stupid shit that so many wrestlers getting offended with, especially Kandis, the pussy I knew she was. Seeing her falling short of Selena at the PPV and how much she cared about her opinions was hilarious.

Ross Barnes: "I can understand, and I also understand Jacob's point. By saying what you said over the radio, you're giving up any chance of winning the World Championship in the future, and that's not the direction we want you to go."

Konrad Raab: "I know, but I also want the United States, Adrenaline and tag titles. I've lost sight of them, but my hatred for Kandis was more important than anything else."

Ross Barnes: "And where did that hatred get you? SCW staff hiring me to be your therapist because you took things too far, and I hope you don't use fire ever again."

Konrad Raab: “Who knows?”

Even though I can't predict the future, what Ross doesn't understand is that anger helps me be motivated often. I didn't go far with pretending to be respectful to everyone, could I? In fact, it cost me more time to win a title than my current self. Although I was prone to anger sickness with my heart beating fast, headaches and vomiting at times.

Ross Barnes: "What do you mean by that?"

Konrad Raab: "If Tommy Valentine and Drake ever return, I intend to burn them, too. They hurt me mentally."

Ross Barnes: "But Konrad, you can't let this fester; you must learn to move on from that situation."

Konrad Raab: "I can't, alright?"

I shouted from the top of my lungs as I knew I wouldn't hold anything back if Drake and Tommy came back, and I won't stop being angry or have a fire inside of me until they've been dealt with, but I suppose I can relax easily for now. I mean, if Enigma pisses me off or crosses a damn line, I would have to burn him too.

Ross Barnes: "Didn't I tell you from the beginning you need to keep the fire obsession in control?"

Konrad Raab: "Yes, but I can't promise to not use fire again; who knows what Enigma would do for me to use it."

Ross Barnes: "Well, you aren't going to do such a thing. There are other ways to combat this fire obsession of yours under control. Using fire on wrestlers is not logical."

Konrad Raab: "Fine, I will try not to use it. Is it better because I can't promise I won't ever use it again?"

Ross Barnes: "I agree with the trying part, at least."

That was a hard thing to admit because, sure, I wanted this feeling of anger to go away, but at the same time, it made me a bigger star than it would if I continued pretending to be friendly to the world, and that wasn't realistic in the long run. These wrestlers will soon see that being respectful and friendly won't get them anywhere but hurt them like me. 

At the same time, while talking about my return was important, Ross still had to drill the point about the main reason for these sessions and discuss my feelings. I drank some of my watermelon sugar-free Rockstar Energy drink. Ross, meanwhile, got out three big books, which he laid face down on the table.

Ross Barnes: "Anyway, while I wanted you to come back and challenge Selena, I can understand that you need improvement, and you do. We still have work to do. Of course, Jacob told you a big spoiler about climbing a big mountain. Well, that's not happening next week. We will start on a smaller mountain, so open that book first."

I knew I couldn't waste time as I had a few things to do with the team today after my win at Atlanta and the encouraging effort in Phoenix with a ton of interviews to do as I've only just got at Bristol, which was becoming my favourite short track to race on. I turned over the book to see it was a mountain in Wales called Snowdon.

Konrad Raab: “OK, interesting. Didn't even know the United Kingdom had mountains to climb."

Ross Barnes: "It does in that part of the United Kingdom. But that's not your biggest challenge. I agreed with Jacob because these two other mountains are so high, and we aren't doing them right away; Jacob will be doing Crevasse Rescue training with you for two weeks. Because you need to learn how to save Jacob if he gets in danger."

Konrad Raab: “Oh boy.”

Ross Barnes: "I know teamwork and responsibility aren't your strongest suit, but that will be one of the many problem-solving methods you'll do. Jacob will also bring someone else on board who will be joining you for the mountain climbs after Wales since you need more than Jacob for these next two. Turn the books over and find out."

I breathed heavily. The thought of the other two mountains being higher than Pikes Peek and Switzerland scared the hell out of me. It took me time to process, although I had done a lot to get this far. If Ross and Jacob didn't think I was ready, they wouldn't get me to do these next two mountain climbs with them. 

I was still nervous, as I still had much more work to do. But I knew I couldn't keep Ross waiting as I turned over the books. One was about the mountain in Mexico, Pico de Orizaba, and the other was about the mountain in Tanzania, Kilimanjaro.

Ross Barnes: "I know the last two are intimidating, but simultaneously, you can manage it. We did need to get you some problem-solving methods going anyway, but Jacob feels it's a great idea. I agree to get you to do that training because it's something you have to learn, especially with that Kilimanjaro mountain, and you'll be thankful you will learn the training Jacob and his partner will give you for two weeks."

Konrad Raab: "I understand, and I'm still going to wrestle and race simultaneously."

Ross Barnes: "Yes, because you have to, just like you have to do these mountain climbs to boost your confidence and self-esteem. Anyway, I leave you to it, and we'll meet in two weeks to oversee you doing the Crevasse Rescue training."

Konrad Raab: "Sure."

It wasn't a satisfactory answer with the tone of my voice I gave him because I wasn't looking forward to the mountain climbs at all. He left while I got three books to read, but he said that, of course, I knew Ross would talk to me more about the two mountains I was going to climb. It was the Wales one I should be focusing on than the other two that will come later on. 

I changed into my team shirt and jeans before leaving my motorhome to do those interviews for the Cup race. Three hours later, I returned and took the Snowdon mountain book to read in bed for two hours before I dropped the book on the floor and went to sleep.

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Kansas City, Kansas. Friday 27th September. (Offline)

I wasn't looking forward to this meeting with Ross whatsoever, especially the fright Ginny had when she saw my face cut up by my own doing, and Jasmine didn't like it either. I've not taken this Trios Tournament loss well, and I couldn't feel the good part about all of this. Most of all, I was placed in a title contender match for a belt I'd won in the past already, and I wanted to refuse since nothing could come good of me trying to win back a title I lost.

I gulped many times as Ginny, who, for some reason, wanted to come to the race as she'd gone to meet other drivers, especially AJ and Dye. I wasn't in the mood for the discussion with Ross, especially what I'd done to myself after he left my motorhome in Bristol that day. I took the loss hard, and I even cried because it affected me so much. I wanted to win the Trios, but my stupid lack of trusting people I don't know got to me in that match.

Worst of all, I couldn't do anything I did, usually, like drink alcohol or fuck other women to get over this like I did before I got married and before I became an alcoholic to trigger my anger. I did resort to smoking, though, as I needed it, although I couldn't smoke weed that I wanted as it was illegal over there. It's also illegal in Kansas as well. So, I opted for smoking tobacco in the electronic form to punish myself and make myself happier.

I already had the drinks on the table, and I stood outside, smoking because I was out of it. The loss was profoundly affecting me, along with the other thing that's affecting me, expecting triplets with my wife. It was strange for Ross to see me outside smoking as he arrived, and the gasp on his face said it all when he saw the cuts on my face.

Ross Barnes: "What have you done?"

Konrad Raab: "Making myself happier by cutting myself."

Ross Barnes: "We're going to talk about this. I'll wait inside."

It was clear Ross was not at all happy with what I did to my face, where there were fifteen cut scars to my face I done to myself. He was going to shout at me; I know it, and I did look somewhat intimidating with the cuts on my face, but I don't regret it as it was what I could do. Anyway, I was taking my time to smoke, trying to get my head around a situation where I would never get a World Title match again. I stopped as no more liquid was left in my E-cigarette. I went back to the motorhome and sat down.

Ross Barnes: "It's clear you've not overcome this loss. What were you doing, self-harming yourself?"

Konrad Raab: "I just needed to do something to make myself better. I did it; what you gonna do, send me to a mental hospital?"

Ross Barnes: "This is serious, Konrad, that your way of coping is self-harming? You know you're fully res.........."

Konrad Raab: "Don't you think I fucking know that?"

I knew he was going to say I was responsible for the loss, and I couldn't deny it. What made it worse was that I let the lack of trust affect me badly. I thought I would've overcome this, being with Ludvig and Dakon, but I didn't, obviously, and I couldn't figure out why I still had these insecurities about not being able to work with them.

Ross Barnes: "This is what I mean. You couldn't solve a problem with getting along with a team you don't know. So, no, I don't think you've made progress. But acknowledging you know you were responsible takes guts to admit you were and make some progress there."

Konrad Raab: "I have to, and that's why I self-harmed by cutting my face and my body because I couldn't live with the loss that was all my own doing and how bad I wanted to win that contract for the world title. I'll never get one now."

Ross Barnes: "But I do need you to not ever self harm yourself again because that's dangerous, and it shows how much help you still need mentally and shows also you're not ready to face Josh Hudson yet."

He was right; I still wasn't mentally ready if I couldn't cope with this loss. It really affected me, and it wasn't the only thing affecting me either, but I'm not going to tell Ross my personal business as it had nothing to do with him. Ross drank some of the energy drink I provided him.

Ross Barnes: "You need to see a mental doctor as well because these cuts are pretty deep for you to not handle the loss well, and it seems you need a lot of help. But that means something; you want to be a world champion. That hard work with the mountain climbing is paying off."

Konrad Raab: "I guess losing the opportunity to go for the world title in Germany really hurt me more than a loss ever affected me. The loss hurts, and it comes all down to me because of my fucking insecurities."

Ross Barnes: "You had a panic attack in the locker room before that, too. That might've affected things too."

He was right. I did suffer from a panic attack because of the pressure to win. All I wanted to do was win the match to make things better, not just for myself and Ross but also for my team, who still haven't been given a Tag Title shot since they came to SCW, and that's starting to bother me a lot.

Ross Barnes: "So we move on to you getting an Underground title match opportunity."

Konrad Raab: "I don't need another Underground title run, I've been there and done that."

Ross Barnes: "I understand, but you don't have a choice. Why? Because, to be honest, Konrad, you need this match more than you think. Look at the mirror on yourself, self-harming yourself with those cuts to your face. This Underground title contention match should make you want to participate. I thought you wanted to face violent men like David Striker?"

Konrad Raab: "Yes, but in circumstances of US, Adrenaline and World Title contendership level matches in Underground rules matches, not Underground title contendership match."

Ross Barnes: "What I meant by you needing this match is it gets all of your anger out, and what better way than to unleash your anger of the loss by taking it out on everyone?"

I tutted and sighed, not really interested in winning the same title I achieved the most with once again. I drank my energy drink, Celsius, this week. I was angry with that decision but waited to see what else Ross would say about it.

Ross Barnes: "I know it's not going to get you closer to Adrenaline, the US and especially the World Title you want, but it's the best situation for you for now to let all that steam off that you couldn't do last week. Underground is the only match in wrestling where you can do that."

I get where Ross was coming from. I was livid about my loss, and I even cried so bad about losing the contract for the World Title in the Trios Tournament that I did need to let my anger and aggression out on wrestlers. He didn't know that part, and I refused to discuss it. I shook my head at the disgust of having to do the title I won once again, but I still had no choice but to do the title match.

Ross Barnes: "I know you aren't interested in holding the title more than once, but it's not that bad like you could last longer as a second champion than you did the first time around. That would be big for you. Also, didn't you say Deanna Frost wasn't a threat to you? I think CHBK heard you say that, and with how you reacted to the loss of self-harming yourself, Leroy is that challenge for you."

Konrad Raab: "I could also face that pathetic Yusa who's not violent if she wins the title. She had no business being in that Title Contention match at all. But fine, I'll see it as your way of wanting me to unleash my anger of being pissed off on the loss to let out every bit of anger I have. Also, remove the fake Yusa, who shouldn't been in that Rumble match for a title opportunity and should've placed her in a one-on-one match in her debut instead."

As I went to get it, there was another ring on the doorbell. My good friends AJ Allmendinger and Daniel Dye were coming in to check to see if I was alright. Only AJ and Daniel saw what I had done to my face. AJ and Daniel shook their heads at the cuts I had made.

AJ Allmendinger: "What the fuck you've done to your face Konrad?"

Ross Barnes: "He's having a tough time at the moment. Konrad admitted he did that as a self-harm process."

Daniel Dye: "Aren't you going to tell Ross that you said you wanted to die and you cried at Bristol over the loss last weekend, or did you hide that part?"

I understand Daniel Dye was angry at me because he did run a charity for Suicide Prevention, and for me to say that was out of line towards him when he's doing everything to take care of suicidal deaths. He was a good friend who cared for me the entire weekend, but that was how I felt. Ross widened his eyes once again, shaking his head, unaware of this discovery that was being brought up.

Ross Barnes: "Is this true?"

I couldn't speak as they told Ross the truth, and I nodded straight at him. I understood that I held some bits back to him, but that kind of reaction, along with knowing what Ross would say, worried me and stopped me from wrestling. AJ backed me up, though, and understood why Daniel Dye said what he said.

AJ Allmendinger: "To be fair, Ross, he overreacted. Daniel Dye didn't know that, but that's an overreaction."

I knew they would come in to check on me, and they knew about Ross, as I told them when AJ asked why he couldn't come to chat. I had to tell him the honest truth, and AJ obviously told Daniel Dye about that, too. I didn't mind because they weren't wrestlers who would expose me.

Ross Barnes: "Even if it is, I considered taking Konrad to a mental hospital specialist, but now, after what you guys told me, I will."

Daniel Dye: "I was mad at him."

Ross Barnes: "As I said, it's a good thing this Underground title contention match on Sunday has come around, hasn't it? That's why he needs to be in the match. I didn't know you guys were popping a visit."

Of course, I didn't tell AJ and Daniel about Ross coming today because it was my first time seeing them this weekend. Still, I told the truth, and maybe I didn't want to tell Ross I cried and wanted to die, but AJ was also right that I overreacted with the suicidal thought I said to AJ and Daniel Dye as they nodded in agreement with Ross, although they didn't know about that match either.

AJ Allmendinger: "We'll wait outside to finish off this whole wrestling sports psychology thing before hanging out. Let's leave them to finish things off, Daniel."

Daniel and AJ went outside, and Ross couldn't believe his eyes when he heard what they had just heard. I couldn't think they would come out with things like that, but they obviously cared and needed to, knowing I was hiding that part.

Ross Barnes: "They care about you, Konrad. I can't believe you didn't tell me."

Konrad Raab: "Because I knew you would send me to a goddamn specialist and stop me from wrestling."

Ross Barnes: "I won't stop you from wrestling, but I have to about seeing the specialist, as I must get you in the right frame of mind. Now, you need to do the match even more to let your anger and frustration out. Use this Underground rules match for that, and if you win a title shot against Yusa or Leroy, it's a bonus. But you can't say you don't want to win the title because that would return to your old habits."

Konrad Raab: "Alright, fine. I care about winning a title I've won again."

Ross Barnes: "Good. Now I will leave you alone to spend time with your racing friends. I will contact a mental hospital specialist to see you, though, because you need a good talk about dealing with that Trios Tournament loss."

I shook my head in shock at what AJ and Daniel Dye said, but I know they had to because last weekend, despite the help I've given them for car setup, it was severe and concerning for the whole team. Ross left and returned home from my motorhome, although he took the energy drink with him. 

I let AJ and Daniel in for a chat and decided they would take me to play bowling with them. I said sure, as I needed to start interacting with people again. I texted Ginny that I was playing bowling with Daniel and AJ for two hours. I had two games and a win, and so did AJ. Then we saw Josh Williams and spent an extra hour playing a four-player table tennis game. After that, we got a hired car back to the circuit and went our separate ways for me to head back to the motorhome.

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Three Hours Later. (Offline)

As I returned to the motorhome, I saw Ginny waiting for me. I knew she had more than a valid reason to come to Kansas; I had a discussion with Ross and then had to go out to play bowling and four-player table tennis, but I was too busy to talk to Ginny. There was an obvious sign of how concerned Ginny was about how I reacted to the boys yesterday, and Ginny needed to speak to me in private. I gave her an energy drink, which she gladly opened the can and took a few sips of before she looked me in the eyes, and seems something was on her mind.

Ginny Raab: "I'm glad you're back because, honestly. I saw how you reacted to the boys yesterday, and it wasn't the usual anger you showed. I expected you to take Kemal's head off. I'm concerned about you."

Konrad Raab: "I can't hurt Kemal for him to tell the truth. It hurt and pissed me off, yes, but I didn't feel like hitting him. The loss affected me a lot more than you think."

Ginny Raab: "I know that, but you know you can tell me, and I won't tell the boys anything you say."

Konrad Raab: "What do you mean it wasn't my usual anger, Ginny?"

I had no idea what she was talking about. Sure, back in the day, I hurt Dakon, but it was because Luiza brought him in for me to beat up to let my feelings out. After all, I had nobody to talk to to let my feelings out, and I didn't want to hit a girl. This was already a long day of discussion, so AJ and Daniel took me out for the day, and I was thankful for that.

Ginny Raab: "Well, as I said, you would've beat the guy up badly, but the anger you've shown yesterday was you being extremely exhausted, and it's more than racing and wrestling business side of things. Something is going on, isn't there between you and Jasmine?"

Konrad Raab: "Yes."

Ginny Raab: "Are you two having issues in the marriage already?"

Konrad Raab: "Not serious argumentative fighting each other to the death, going to have a divorce, no."

Ginny Raab: "Then what is it? I want to know if it's something I can help you and Jasmine with."

Yeah, there weren't any issues as such, but she had the right to point it out to me, and I haven't told anyone apart from efedder.net friends we had as it wasn't in public, so to speak, because I didn't really want anyone other than our friends to find out. I gulped because I was concerned about getting out more in wrestling, especially NASCAR when I was focused on winning the championship. I sighed as Ginny was someone I could trust, however. She was patiently waiting for me to answer her, so I did.

Konrad Raab: "Jasmine is pregnant with triplets."

Ginny Raab: "Wow, that's fantastic news. Congratulations. Is that what's making you exhausted?"

Konrad Raab: “Yes, it is. Accommodating Jasmine is arduous work. She has been sick a lot since she got pregnant, and I have barely been able to sleep because I have had to take care of her and am always worried about her when I'm away."

Ginny Raab: "Well, obviously, if she's carrying triplets, it's going to make her sick more than usual. I'm guessing she also had a twin sibling in her family."

Konrad Raab: "You were sitting beside her twin sister at the wedding, Cheryl. I'm concerned that coming to this race without her and her sickness isn't a good idea."

I hated the fact that I had to attend races without her at times. Granted, she was in Bristol last weekend, but that's because it was her birthday week, and she vomited a lot and needed the toilet a lot more than usual. Granted, I had triplets with Fizz before, but Jasmine was in a worse state than Fizz was. I also explained why I didn't get angry with Kemal as usual.

Konrad Raab: "I didn't let my anger out on Kemal because I promised Jasmine that I wouldn't be angry around her during her pregnancy. My anger scares her, and she's already told me off about it a few times for doing so in front of her. Of course, she wasn't around us yesterday, but I had to practice not to be angry."

Ginny Raab: "And to think you've been with angry women before.”

Konrad Raab: "It's different this time, as I've never seen Jasmine get angry, other than her passion for skateboarding. By the way, she would never hurt a fly, let alone cause cuts on my face and body; that's all on me.

Ginny Raab: "That's not the concern anymore. It's OK, Konrad, really. I won't tell anyone you've said this. What I do want to do, though, is find a nanny to help Jasmine during the pregnancy so she and you can feel safe and you'll able to sleep when you're away doing races or wrestling matches. You will have her number so you can contact each other if something's wrong with Jasmine or the babies in her stomach."

Konrad Raab: "That's a great idea. It would relieve the pressure of taking Jasmine everywhere I go to care for her. She's been too sick to travel, and I had to take her because we don't know anyone to care for her. Luckily, her mum is assisting her this week, but she can't always be there all the time."

It always scared me when I was away with my pregnant wife, and it scared me when I was not with her as well. Because Jasmine was sicker than Fizz was, Ginny had other concerns about us and the babies we're gonna have next year, as she only found out as I did two weeks ago, and I was still trying to process everything.

Ginny Raab: "Do you need help decorating the room or buying baby equipment? After all, I want to get you both gifts for the babies, as I am part of the family."

Konrad Raab: "Yes, you are, and we're going to have a family baby shower only, which, of course, you're invited to. You could get us baby clothes and anything you want, like toys or cuddly toys."

Ginny Raab: "Of course I will. I'm so happy for the pair of you that it's positive news rather than negative. As I said tonight, I will go and look online for nannies who take care of pregnant women like Jasmine when you're away at the races and when you're away for wrestling matches so you can sleep and not be so exhausted."

Konrad Raab: "I will decorate and put cots together. I got Jasmine's mother to get us a pram for triplet babies."

Ginny Raab: "That's good. I'm glad about that. And congratulations again on being a father and Jasmine being a mother to triplets. I'm sure you'll be great parents, and I'm sure things will be alright. I'm so happy for you."

Of course, I was willing to do the work as the father I would be to those triplet babies. On top of that, I went on a course that was quite unique to me about the challenges I could face while being a father to triplets. I did feel better getting that out to Ginny as she stood up to hug me because of what I told her. It was all going well, and we were happy until suddenly, the doorbell rang many times, acting like an emergency, as AJ came into my motorhome and immediately said this.

AJ Allmendinger: "You must turn on the TV right now."

I nodded, as it could be a big emergency. AJ turned the TV on and showed me the big emergency news. Hurricane Helene had hit parts of North Carolina, Georgia, Tennessee, where we were last week, Virginia, and Florida. Now, I had more concerns to worry about than Jasmine being pregnant with my babies.

Konrad Raab: "Oh my god, thanks a lot for showing this to me."

AJ Allmendinger: “No problem. Sorry to disturb the family discussions you both had."

Konrad Raab: "No, I'm glad as hell you told me because I need to plan to arrange supplies, which I will do the first thing I do when I wake up tomorrow. We need to have a team meeting tomorrow about this because, you know damn well, I take this shit seriously with getting people to safety as well as supplying them with things they need."

AJ Allmendinger: "I know you do, and that's why I had to show you this. I agree. We need to have a team meeting about this tomorrow and see what we can do to help them get all the supplies they need, seeing as you're an expert on this."

Konrad Raab: "Food, drink, clothes, toiletries, nappies, pads, toys, the things people need the most in situations like this. This is really bad, especially in North Carolina, and people say Climate Change isn't a thing? It's a fucking thing that people should take seriously."

It always made my blood boil when wrestlers had said I hadn't taken shit seriously about Climate Change when I was deadly fucking serious about it. It was the one thing I never mocked in life, and it's why I wear a Climate Change badge on my wrestling clothes. Of course, I had to prioritize this over support with Ross next week.

Ginny Raab: "My goodness, wonder how many people are missing?"

Konrad Raab: "There's always a lot of people missing. I've found dead bodies and even people that are alive before in these situations that were stuck in buildings and trying to hide in random places. Don't worry, AJ; as a team, we will help everyone we can and work with Kaulig to get things sorted."

AJ Allmendinger: "We sure will. I leave you both to it."

AJ left because he was concerned about his wife, and thank God, I decided to take Jasmine back to my Chicago home that week to keep her safe. However, I wondered if my North Carolina and Florida holiday homes were all right. These hurricanes are why I never wanted to live in those locations. Now, I had to phone up Ross as Ginny went to the bedroom to search for a nanny for me. It took a while for Ross to pick up, but he did.

Ross Barnes: "Don't tell me you're down in the dumps again. We've all........."

Konrad Raab: "No, we need to cancel the meeting for next week. Hurricane Helene hit major parts of the country overnight, and I need to help them get to safety and supply them with supplies and money they need."

Ross Barnes: "Oh yeah, I forgot you were super pro on Climate Change and this sort of thing. I can fully understand that. Thanks for the heads-up. I see you in two weeks, then."

The phone call ended, and now tomorrow, it's essential that AJ and I get a meeting sorted with Josh Williams, Ty Dillon, who was driving in the Cup Series this weekend, Daniel Dye and Daniel Hemric, along with Chris Rice, Matt Kaulig, and the entire team about this grave situation. Sleeping and focusing for tomorrow's race would be a struggle, but I had to. 

I went to sleep and woke up at eight in the morning to contact many people to help me get bags of supplies and buy things for me on the go. Then I had breakfast and changed into my overalls to head towards the Kaulig Racing garages to discuss the situation with Hurricane Helena before we went to do practice and qualify for the Xfinity Series race later today.

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The underground match is perfect for the situation and my mood in the blog (Online).

"Before we get started, I want to send out my condolences to everyone who's lost their lives in Hurricane Helena. I will be helping and assisting my racing team on Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday with the supplies I will send to everyone who needs them. I will search for bodies myself and see if anyone's trapped to get them out. I take climate change seriously. I've helped rebuild homes, flats, hotels, churches, shops, and bridges. It's why I wear a badge of preventing Climate Change because I'm that damn passionate about it. 

If you buy any of my merchandise or diecasts today, the money will be donated to the Hurricane Relief Charity, and I'll send the money to them myself. I'm dedicating this match to the victims of Hurricane Helena, and I'm dead serious about doing everything to promote Climate Change even more to stop hurricanes, tsunamis, storms, floods, and earthquakes from happening worldwide. I will be wearing wristbands of the American Flag to dedicate to the lost lives from Hurricane Helena. If you don't believe I do this kind of work. Ask Ginny or that Turkish wrestler, and you'll see his debut soon.

Moving on, however, to the match itself. I tend to shrug off losses like a water on a duck's back, but the loss I had in the Trios Tournament, I haven't taken the loss too well. You will see how much the loss has affected me when you see my face tonight as I'm writing this six in the morning since I've been busy, you see, with everything going on. Let's say I placed cuts on my face because the loss is all on me, and it shows no matter how desperate you are to win, it doesn't always pay off. I'm not making excuses other than it's my goddamn insecurities of trusting partners that caused the loss to happen.

But that's why I have to see it from someone's point of view. I'm so angry about the loss that I use this match as a way to unleash my anger on David, Chris, and Brittany, and I won't feel sorry for the pain and suffering they are about to suffer. Because I'm spitting angry, and there are no matches in SCW where I can express anger and let my frustrations out than in the ring since I'd get arrested if I did it in the streets, and sparring in the boxing or MMA octagons isn't enough for me.

I still have no idea what the fuck you want to be in the wrestling business for Chris Lawler. I was still pissed off that you had to ignore me that entire time we were wrestling in the Trios. How can you focus on one person and ignore me and the current champion herself, Yusa? I've been focused on Kandis, but I still managed to acknowledge other opponents I fought against. The only time you ever spoke about wanting to win a title is in the Rumble match. Other than that, I can't figure out why you came back. You can say it's to make your name known again or how you weren't the same man.

I've not once quit SCW because of losses I've been getting or because I'm lost in the woods. I've been here since day fucking one, and I'm going to leave this business when I retire. No attempt of ever coming back; with the other sport I do, I won't have a chance to return to the wrestling business. But I don't know why you're in this match because compared to the other two opponents, you aren't the kind of wrestler that will show any sort of violence or have any reason to be. 

Sure, you've had big wins around here, even against Ravyn and Syren, but you have no passion for Underground matches and the weakest bitch in this match. I don't see any value in you, Chris, but nothing about you remotely interests me one bit because you're like most wrestlers around here with your story, bland and generic.

Something Brittany doesn't have, with her stories of being in Underground matches in the past. But hearing from her, like you, Chris, she also doesn't give a fuck about Underground matches either. What is the point of being in the professional wrestling business if you don't want to cause violence? Violence is what professional wrestling is about. If you want to play safe wrestling and have clean matches, go and be an Amateur wrestler because playing to the rules of wrestling of having clean and fair matches is overrated, boring and too easy to do. Heck, I've won matches in rules setting. 

Why does nearly the entire roster act like they are better than using weapons? Because you aren't. Wrestlers like you are just a running gag at this point of being the same pussies to be afraid to use weapons, pussies that don't want to go to extra lengths to win matches anymore because they want respect. Fuck the respect because there's none in the ring when you face wrestlers. I wouldn't even show respect to my team in the ring if we ever fought in solo matches. I would give them a hard time in the ring and beat the fuck out of them like they weren't my friends. I'm not afraid of hurting my friends to win, and they aren't either.

You're no different to Chris, except you had an interesting story once, but your attitude of saying you don't need to fight with weapons is a joke. You even managed to insult a wrestler I deeply respect in Kim. Makes me sick you decide to trash her because she made the division what it is. She's worked her ass off and, quite frankly, sick of generic wrestlers like you trashing her and her accomplishments. Fuck out of here, and I'm already pissed off as it is and can't wait to batter the shit out of you.

David, on the other hand, you pissed me off too. When can you go around and claim this is your underground division? Since that match you had with Kim? Sure, you brought brutality to her, but guess who brought it to Kim before your ass came in and who inspired you to be in this Underground division as well as Kim? That's right, me, something you seem to forget. Also, I've been the Underground Champion, as everyone else has been in this match except for you. Why? Because I held it once, and quite honestly, I've never been big on winning titles more than once, but I have to care about this opportunity because the other two sure don't or won't.

But I do, and I know I'm the one who will bring absolutely everything to you, David, for the reasons I've stated earlier. I'm all about the weapons-hitting madness, and I can't wait to see what you'll do and bust me the fuck open. I would love to be harmed by other wrestlers as well as harming myself if it takes to make me feel better about that Trios loss. I absolutely agree with you on Yusa; she shouldn't have been handed a title opportunity in her first match, and not only that, but she doesn't at all have a violent mindset. She chose the Underground title because she was too scared of facing her friend for the title of beating the shit out of her, despite how that would be more of a story than her facing Leroy.

In fact, I'd agree that she would insult it in a way Brittany did, but making a mockery out of the division me and Kim created because the division she created with other wrestlers previously no longer exists in her world, to be honest. I admire you for your passion and dedication to the Underground Division. I do, and you're the only person in the match who not only hasn't held it but is also why you want to be an Underground title contender so severely.

But I have to stop you from chasing that goal because I am the king of violence, and I will forever be that; despite the creativity you had with Kim for the Underground title, initially, it was Cian's idea for me to be in the division and I've been consistent at it. I'm still going to beat the shit out of you and make you bleed because it's wrestling, after all.

I will be walking away with this match as the winner because I'm going to come in as the angriest wrestler out of all of you to unleash the world of violence and pain I need in myself to let out after that loss. I will beat all four of you to Smithereens to win the title. 

Because I will break you all, unleashing many weapons under the ring and my mace. Nobody will be able to stop The Burned Blood from raising hell and causing pain, suffering and injuries to all of you wrestlers because I'm that damn pissed off, and you can't do shit about it. I will win because I can, and I will."