Konrad Raab's Fatal Fortunes RP 2: Telling Ginny the truth of Konrad's condition and discussing about Fatal Fortunes and the German PPV plans.

Denver, Colorado. Tuesday 26th November. (Offline)

As usual, the tag team of Ludvig and Dakon, along with Ginny, stay in a hotel, while I always pay to stay in a hired apartment due to my refusal to eat out because of being a vegan, especially as of right now if my plans are going the way I think they are going. Still, this was the time for me to set things straight with Ginny. Of course, Ross and my psychologist doctor, Aaron Murphy, who evaluated me about the disorder at a mental hospital, were here as well. Still, they were going back home after this. They were here for me to tell her, and Aaron was here if Ginny needed to ask questions or see evidence.

I still wondered more about this disorder myself since it's still was strange to have, but it was all SCW staff's fault for forcing me to go through a long trail of these tests. Worst of all, I hadn't told Ginny about these tests, but I knew she was angry with me without seeing her. At the same time, it felt good to sample a blowtorch from my own Pyro Paradise store I owned, which is a little business nobody knew about, not even Ginny, psychologists, or my wife, quite frankly.

I told them why I opted to stay in hired apartments since they asked about my vegan diet. They didn't answer, as I only responded to the question a few minutes ago after Aaron asked. It was something not even Ross knew about me because he always came to my motorhome and couldn't tell the difference. He had an answer for this.

Ross Barnes: "No wonder you're in such good shape for your age."

Konrad Raab: "I've been sticking with it ever since I was overweight in the business when I started, and I took extra limits so as not to do that to myself again."

Aaron Murphy: "That's a perfect explanation of why you have a gym addiction to make yourself feel good, contributing to your pyromania condition."

It was good to get the nerves out of the way, but it was nerve-racking, and I hadn't told Jasmine of the condition, even though I had to, but I wasn't going to tell them about my wife; it had nothing to do with them. But they knew about Ginny, my wrestling tag partners, and my NASCAR team/friends because they watch wrestling and have already met the team and drivers. Suddenly, the doorbell rang, and I went to answer it, which, of course, was Ginny. As soon as she walked in, she slapped and gave me violent pushes to say this in German.

Ginny Raab: "What the fuck are you thinking last week to burn Xander?"

Of course, the doctors didn't understand anything that she said because it was in German, but they could tell from the slaps and pushes I was getting that it was pretty bad for them to see and Ross, because he knew me, jumped in.

Ross Barnes: "Before you hit and push Konrad more. There's a reason why I told Konrad to invite you here without the team. Take a seat, and we'll talk about it."

Ginny Raab: "Who are you?"

Ginny looked at the other guy sitting there; Ginny hadn't seen Aaron before and could understand her concerns about why he was there. Ginny took her shoes off and sat as I prepared everyone with glasses of water. Aaron went to introduce himself.

Aaron Murphy: "I'm Aaron Murphy, doctor psychologist for Chicago Behavioural Hospital."

Ginny Raab: "OK, nice to meet you, Aaron; I'm Konrad's niece and manager, Ginny Raab."

I looked on the floor, defeated and ashamed of Ginny having to know my condition. She looked bewildered about Aaron's presence. She learned about Ross; she had met him at NASCAR races, but Aaron was the guy she had yet to encounter. They looked at one another, and so did I.

Ross Barnes: "Sorry to get you here on pretty short notice, but there's a reason why Konrad did what he did. I didn't know what he would do, and I'm sure you didn't either from how you pushed and hit Konrad."

Ginny Raab: "No, I didn't, and I told Konrad not to do that crap, and he promised me he wouldn't."

Aaron Murphy: "Same with Ross with that promise, too. But while Konrad told you about Ross and being his full-time SCW psychologist, what he didn't tell you was that SCW staff told Ross to get in contact with me to evaluate him on a condition that's so rare. Still, he's also known to do other stuff, and he's been seeing me this entire time, as well as Ross."

Ginny Raab: "Why didn't you tell me this?"

Konrad Raab: "Because the results hadn't come in then, I told you everything I've been doing since I wasn't around the wrestling business."

Ross and Aaron nodded at me about what had been going on with me since I went away from wrestling for a while because there were many more important things to discuss at the time than this situation. I had to accept my condition, and the more I thought about what I had done in the past, the more I agreed with it, despite my other mental issues as well.

Ross Barnes: "I did tell Konrad not to tell you until the results came in, and they have now, after months of speaking about his past with his dad in regards to the abuse he got and how he dealt with situations at school, college and even at his jobs. We've got the results in for this, and I want you, Konrad, to tell Ginny."

I cleared my throat, nervous that Ginny would forever hate my guts and no longer want to manage me. I stayed silent for a while, Ross and Aaron nodding, encouraging me to tell her. I sighed, knowing it took me five minutes not to let my anxiety attack me.

Konrad Raab: "I have a condition called pyromania."

Ginny placed her hand across her mouth, feeling guilty for hitting and pushing me, and I could understand because I didn't tell her, and I had my head down, almost like I wanted to run away and hide, but I couldn't. Then she speaks.

Ginny Raab: "Oh shit. I'm sorry for pushing and hitting you earlier. Can I see evidence of these tests?"

Aaron Murphy: "You sure can, and here's a leaflet to tell you more about that, too."

Of course, I knew Ginny would ask because it was her duty as my manager to know all of these things. Of course, Aaron and Ross planned to tell SCW staff about the condition despite not being happy with them doing that, but they had to as a part of their job. She read through everything, widened her eyes, and saw sadness and even fear a bit because of my uncontrollable of starting fires.

Ginny Raab: "Now we know why you always want to look at the fires, and you start them because it helps you relieve anxiety."

Konrad Raab: "Yeah, and it also makes me better with my anger. That's why I did what I did to Xander last week, and I can't control it, although I do love fires and seeing him suffer from pain gave me a sense of happiness."

Ross Barnes: "OK, Konrad, we don't need to hear that anymore."

Aaron Murphy: "He expresses fire a lot, and Konrad here is one of the most dangerous individuals I've encountered. He's done a lot of arsons in his past and uses them to cause harm to people. Although pyromaniacs usually don't do that, Konrad does in his case. He also expresses the texture and smell of fire pretty expressively in the tests, too."

Ginny Raab: "I'm not going to stop managing you if that was why you were worried. I'm your niece, for god's sake, and it will take me more than you hiding this information from me to stop managing you."

Being called the most dangerous felt good because nobody had ever told me. Still, it made me feel good from a wrestling standpoint, it didn't view me as a fucking weakling as Xander did, and it hurts a lot that people said I'm weak. When I use fires to start and trigger them to make me better. I always feel a sense of relief and satisfaction. I drank some water before Ross said this, and he and Aaron finished their water.

Ross Barnes: "Aaron and I better get back. You got all the information there, Ginny, in the folder I photocopied to learn more about his condition. Konrad will be seeing Aaron every other week. Granted, we can do nothing to stop Konrad from causing fires, but we will try."

Konrad Raab: "I don't think I can stop. I enjoy seeing the flames flashing at me and burning myself and others."

Aaron and Ross left my hired apartment immediately after I said that since they got to go and tell SCW staff about this with a folder for them as well. However, I felt better that Ginny knew everything now about what's gone on, and she had to double-check with me on saying this as she was still in shock. She was pretty angry but still in shock.

Ginny Raab: "What else have you been hiding from me?"

Konrad Raab: "Nothing, I swear, Ginny."

Ginny Raab: "All this time, you hid this part from me despite being open about everything else since you have been away from wrestling because of the burns you got from that inferno match with Kandis. Seriously, Konrad."

Konrad Raab: "You heard Ross; he told me not to tell you or anyone. Not even my wife knows about this."

Ginny Raab: "You better tell her, or I will."

I knew Ginny would do that since she told Jasmine about my fears away from her when she was sick as a dog. However, she still was, but nowhere near as bad as it was a lot earlier, but that's because we were going to have triplets; little does anyone in the wrestling business know about that because I deliberately kept Jasmine a secret from everyone. I know I need to tell her, but I'm concerned it will be worse than her worrying about my anger. But I know I have to discuss this stuff with her.

Konrad Raab: "I will, and the doctors I know left the information here for me to show Jasmine, too."

Ginny Raab: "You know I'll be checking if you told her or not to her."

Konrad Raab: "I got it, but please, you can't stop me from doing this. My fascination with fires has grown a lot more than expected. I mean, I thought it was a one-time thing, but obviously, it's grown more than that. I'm guessing it started when The Jackals dumped me and slowly festered. The fears I had of fire were true, but I didn't know the fear was because of how fascinated I was by them."

Ginny nodded, as now she knew the truth of my condition. Aaron placed the folder with Jasmine's name on it in the bag, and she said one thing as she went over to put her shoes on.

Ginny Raab: "I will not tell the team about this; it's between me and you. But while I keep that promise, you can't hide that from Jasmine whatsoever and be kept between her, you and me."

Konrad Raab: "Thank you, that's all I ask."

I knew Ginny had to get back as she did. I knew that, luckily for the team that was staying at the hotel, I could have easy access to the hotel gym facilities as I always told them the room Ginny was in, to lie and sometimes, I had Ginny come down to state I share a room with her. They let me through, although luckily, it was at night I used the facilities as I didn't want to share them with other wrestlers. Anyway, it was too early for that, as I did my four-hour workout and rested in my hired apartment after having a vegan breakfast I made for myself.

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The first match since Waylon Creek for the TV title over a month ago is why I'm excited to participate in the Fatal Fortunes blog. (Online)

"First of all, Waylon Creek, this is one of those rare fucking moments I say things like this, as Kim and Enigma know, but I can admit not only I underestimated you, but I respect you because you're the kind of wrestler I'm interested in facing in the ring. I want to face dangerous wrestlers who can be a threat to me, and those are the wrestlers I'm only interested in facing, and I certainly would face you again. Also, thank you for dropping me on my head and making me even more dangerous than ever before. It's not like other wrestlers you've injured has been a bad thing, but what you did was the best damn thing you did.

Mainly because what I did last week is what I've wanted to do more of because fires are my life; they are so pretty to watch, and seeing people be in pain because of the pain they give me mentally was beautiful. Seeing Xander being hurt with his foot because I burned it, the screams he made were music to my ears, along with the flame touching the ring to cause a burn on it. The only excitement I have about being a part of Fatal Fortunes is coming back to the damn ring to wrestle, as I've not wrestled since over a month ago, and that's crazy to say.

But I've been watching how broken-ass the World Title division has been with Xander, Amy Chastaine and Josh Hudson shaking hands and kissing each other's backsides like everything else with this broken-ass wrestling business with other title divisions. Since when has the wrestling business become a coffee party where everyone respects each other and gets along? Since when has this business been passing the contract or handed a contract party to get title shots because you know SCW staff instead of striking the opponents where it hurts most to threaten title contenders to get title shots these days? 

Fucking pussy ass shits. We are wrestlers, not best friends showing respect in the ring, hanging out, not being friends with the SCW staff to get contracts for titles or other cheap bullshit. Because all of that does not sell tickets, nobody gives a shit about those matches. It's not marketable. Where are the good old wrestling days when rivalries and everyone hating and beating the shit out of each other and still maintaining being friends? Those matches are what people want and give a damn about.

Why is Polly more interested in getting the world title than any other title in SCW? She has done nothing to deserve a world title shot. Polly, do everyone a favour and prove yourself in other title divisions before capturing the world title, you stupid bitch. I won't write much about Selena Frost, considering she's a fucking joke to me. I have no interest in facing Selena whatsoever because she's incapable of having a violent match with me and making me bleed since she's a harmless wrestler, so I see no threat from Selena whatsoever. It's laughable anyone considers her a threat and wants to face her because she's a former World Champion. I won't hesitate to burn her pathetic world title guaranteed contract she never earned and was handed to her like a silver spoon in her mouth.

Because fire, to me, is what makes everything better in the world. Fire is what people will fear me with everything I do that will not make me a joke. Attacking Xander, I had that shit planned for a while, despite the target initially being Josh Hudson, but I said to everyone I would patiently wait for the right timing, and that's what I did. Because the only wrestlers I'm interested in fighting are those, who will use violence, make me bleed and beat the shit out of me because they are a threat in my eyes, and Xander is the perfect definition of that.

Xander, don't think the burn on your foot will be the last thing you'll see because you will see me trigger more fires on you, and you will be covered in just as many burns as me. Because I loved hearing you scream in pain, and since when did I run and hide from you? I didn't when I was still in the ring. Stupid officials stopped me from burning you even more because it was just such a pretty sight to see the orange and red flame touch your shoe; it would've been better on your body.

There will be more damage to come, and none of you is going to like me thanks to Waylon dropping me on my head to cause me to be a sick, demented and pyromaniac fuck that will start more and more fires and the best bit, nobody can stop me from my addictive behaviour because I love seeing people burn, I love seeing fires, and I could watch them all day. I could fight all day to cause the bleeding in people as well. 

Blood and fire are dangerous combinations, and that's the reason for my return, along with capturing that world title match at German PPV against Xander; hopefully, not against some weak, useless fuck who doesn't have the capabilities to give me a real challenge for violence, fire and blood. I don't care who I face other than showing and proving to Xander that I'm ready to be a world champion in Germany, and you're the one who's too stupid to see the future where you're going to be booed, and I'm going to get cheered.

I will beat down anyone considering me a non-threat because I see where James comes from. We are sick and tired of Selena and Xander matches of the world who do nothing to develop talent for the future. I mean, come on, even I'm plotting to bring in two more young European talent than these two idiots ever plan to do, and that's saying something as an evil, fire maniac I am. Did you see the evil look in my eyes? I'm damn serious about this World Title challenge at the PPV and James should thank me for attacking Xander to see a very different World Title match at the German PPV.

I'm not concerned about not getting a title match at Fatal Fortunes because my focus isn't on Fatal Fortunes. I know I will get my main event world title match at the German PPV, which is what my focus is on, and I will hurt, burn and bleed someone if they jump ahead of me for that main event world title match at the German PPV because it would be bullshit if anyone else besides me gets it. 

I've wanted the main event world title PPV match in Germany more than all the PPVs this company has had because it's what I've wanted since I entered this business. The purpose of the Fatal Fortunes is only for me to get back into the ring and show everyone what they've been missing. 

I don't give a fuck who I will face because I will just destroy every motherfucker I face in the ring with ease and be a hot-blooded German who will ensure everything he gets this week to get the main event World Title match at the German PPV. I will prove how badly I want the title shot in Germany by beating the living fuck out of everyone in my way and win because I can. I will since everyone will end up fearing me more than they've ever feared me before.

I also make sure that CHBK regrets ever putting me off the card because I need to wrestle to let my anger, aggression, and mental pain out in that ring. I don't and won't feel sorry for anyone who gets hurt by me in that ring tomorrow night since I'm busy next week, so this week, I will make things count, and none of you will like me. 

Because I need to come back to wrestle more than any of you wrestlers do. You all will be seriously hurt because I've not been wrestling for over a month, and that's on CHBK for holding me back, along with the fire damage I did on Xander last week, and that's a preview of what's about to come for Xander you silly bitch. See you fuckers out there."