Singles match against Chris Lawler: Meeting with psychotherapist and mountain climber about being ready for the world title match and hope to not be ignored by Chris Lawler.

Berlin, Germany. Saturday 11th January. (Offline)

I had been flying back and forth towards America and Germany a lot the past few weeks, doing a ton of interviews on TV, on radio channels and even online podcasts for wrestling and racing side of things, autograph signings, doing comedy skits for German channels, visited the headquarters of Chevrolet motors in Switzerland and Germany for NASCAR and racing related stuff mostly. However, I must bring my team here for the whole deal during the PPV week. I also acquired a terrestrial German TV channel showing SCW Dogfight in Düsseldorf PPV on RTL that will show the entire PPV. I also got some German commentators for the PPV as well. Mainly because none of the wrestlers or staff in SCW had any connections with German TV people like I do.

Plus, I had a duty to promote everything, including teaching my students, which I have in mine and Lord Raab's wrestling school for wrestling. I also started a racing school right next to the wrestling school headquarters. Everything was going well at the school, and more students were being seen than ever. But of course, I wasn't in Cologne or Düsseldorf, although I have been going back and forth to those locations. I'm in Berlin because I was interviewed on the Late Night Berlin show by Klaas Heufer-Umlauf about wrestling and even racing, primarily for promotion on SCW's Dogfight in Düsseldorf PPV.

I only just got back from that as well, being in my hired apartment, wearing a suit as I had to look presentable to the interviewers I had to do the last few weeks to get everyone hyped about it. I learned a lot from that match against Archer Chadwick in Australia, such as how to be a monster face and have the fans root for him. I also enjoyed the experience of wrestling in Australia, which I completely missed from the SCW tour they did last year, and I feel better about making up for it.

Although I was expecting a couple of visitors who knew I had a lot of work behind my hands, especially as I had to fly straight back to America tomorrow for wrestling matches side of things, they knew this was the best day to meet up with them and to meet them in Germany as well. So I ate some vegan chicken salad I made myself as I was hungry. I drank a vegan protein shake and went to the gym eight hours daily to be in shape for this match. As I ate, the doorbell rang, and I went downstairs to let them in.

Of course, it was my psychotherapist Ross Barnes and the mountain climber Jacob Thomas who seemed for once to be proud of me. However, I know my actions didn't approve of them at times, I had to do what I had to do little does Xander know and I won't tell him publicly until the PPV. However, now I had to deal with that bastard Josh Hudson, who thought it was a good idea to almost steal my opportunity from going for the World Title. I know Ross especially had questions about the match based on how he was sitting.

Konrad Raab: “I apologise I didn't get you guys drinks already, but I've only returned from an interview for a TV Show. I do that now before we talk.”

I was a fool for not offering them drinks, as I poured them some orange juice and gave it to them. As I continued to eat my vegan chicken salad with a vegan protein shake, Ross looked at me and watched me eat.

Ross Barnes: “Don't worry about it. I expected you to be busy around this beautiful country from which you came.”

Jacob Thomas: “Yeah, I already like the scenery around Berlin, and it was one of the countries I've never been to, so it was a wise decision for you to come and meet us here.”

Konrad Raab: “It was the only time we could meet.”

Ross Barnes: “I don't approve of the methods you used to get that title shot; it has to be said.”

Jacob Thomas: “The methods were extreme, but I didn't care because what I saw was Konrad caring and wanting to be a world champion, which is exactly what we wanted after all the hard work we've put into Konrad having confidence and having a stronger mindset, despite well I know you got some worries about that.”

Part of me knew what Ross wanted to say, but to be honest, I didn't care because I wanted to strike at the right time, as I've always told them before, during and after my mountain climbs as I drank more of the vegan protein shake with me knowing this may not go down well whatever Ross has concerns about.

Ross Barnes: “Are you sure you want your world title match in Germany? I mean the pressure of yo........”

Konrad Raab: “Are you kidding me, Ross? Are you trying to say I shouldn't have faith in myself and lose the match? No, fuck you. Of course, I'm fucking sure I want my world title match to be in Germany because winning the world title in Germany in front of my home fans will mean the entire world and will be a special moment for me and my fans. Are you insane? All that work I did was to allow Josh and Xander to go at it in my home fucking country?”

I was mad and showed Ross how serious I was as Jacob. He saw the confidence I had weeks prior. Even Ross was shocked at how deadly serious I was. I sat down intensely after looking into Ross's eyes and at the comments I made.

Jacob Thomas: “Wow, that fire in his eyes, the confidence. I understand what Ross was trying to do now, he was trying to test you to see if you fall back in the roots of lacking confidence, you passed the test.”

Ross Barnes: “Partly, but I also was figuring out how he'd come across taking that loss in front of his home fans if Konrad loses, with all the pressure built up to lose in front of his home fans.”

Konrad Raab: “You can think whatever you want, Ross, but I'm not even thinking about losing because it won't happen. I will walk away with that world title gold.”

Jacob Thomas: “Good, that's exactly what we've wanted to hear this entire time. He's ready, Ross. What he told the world, wasn't just for camera, he actually means it.”

That negativity was something I was not going to tolerate as it was why I was pissed off with Josh, stating I wasn't ready and Ross should've known that, but I guess it's easy to do on camera, and he wanted to test me. I continued to eat the last pieces of my vegan chicken salad. Although it felt weird to have the fans behind me in America, that was the situation I would be in this time in two weeks.

Ross Barnes: “OK, I guess you passed that test. I was testing you, Konrad, that it wasn't just for cameras and part of the show. Wow, you are so confident about this match, and we never thought you'd be ready so quickly for the world title match.”

Jacob Thomas: “Not to mention the crowd cheering for Konrad as well.”

Konrad Raab: “Look, even I was shocked about the cheers I got in America, but at the same time, I'm going to get these reactions in Germany, a lot more than that. But all the attacks on Xander I've done and with my team, it's all to ensure I get that World Title match against him. The team attacking him is simply for promoting my wrestling school, which they are a part of, on top of debuting two new members to European Fiery Nation, too.”

Ross Barnes: “I would've gone the route of asking, but saying that, showing Xander you mean it is far more effective. Went a bit too far on burning foot, mace and gang attack, but I understand now why you did. I also understand now why the fans were behind you. After all, you're the underdog in the match.”

Konrad Raab: “Well, I show them I'm not the underdog and become SCW's World Champion in Germany because that's all I ever wanted to do since I became a professional wrestler.”

With all this hype on me going for the world title, I hadn't even touched on Chris Lawler being my opponent for Breakdown this week because I was so damn focused on the world title match on preparing for it, but it's certainly on my mind now and right when Ross brings it up.

Ross Barnes: “Don't forget about facing Chris Lawler on Friday night.”

Konrad Raab: “It only came to my mind right now. Yeah, ironically, he's gone the opposite direction on being a dickhead, while I'm going as a fan favourite. Gonna have to write differently to what I usually do.”

Jacob Thomas: “Yeah, I saw some changes you made in your last blog. It's well written of the changes you slowly made there, but I'm guessing this will slightly differ from how you approach Chris.”

Konrad Raab: “Correct, although I will still be somewhat of a dick still, but not over the top, you know. Just gonna work with it.”

Ross Barnes: “Just remember everything we've said that also applies to this match. Although it isn't a world title match, approach Chris Lawler like it's Xander or Josh in front of you. Anyway, we leave you to it as I'm sure you got other things to tackle.”

They left as I expected them to. I collected the plate, knife, fork, and the protein shake plastic bottle and took it to the sink to wash and rinse, in the case of my protein shake plastic bottle, and left everything to dry on the drying rack. On the other hand, I hadn't been to the gym since this morning and had to do four more hours there.

Although I just ate and had to wait two hours before I went to the gym. Watched TV for two hours, reminding myself how much I miss watching German TV shows. Two hours later, I turned the TV off and headed straight to the gym for the second half of my workout. Of course, on my way to the gym, my twin brother Markus “Lord” Raab phoned me to say he'd be attending my match. Only brings a smile to my face, and I walk into the gym and finish the second half of my workout before I go home to go straight to sleep.

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Are you going to ignore me again as well as Josh Hudson did, Chris Lawler? Blog (Online)

“Every time we've fought in multi-person matches, Chris Lawler, you seem to ignore me by every stretch of the imagination. I'm mainly addressing you because you're more critical here. But tell me why you've not once acknowledged anything about me because all you've said about me is how amazing I am as a competitor. That's it. Nothing else was mentioned, and quite frankly, that annoys me, considering how much I want to praise you for even being in the business with the frustrating losses you've been getting. I admire the fire you showed in that Asher Hayes video. I admire the grit of your wrestling, no matter what.

But you attacked one of The Shinigami Foundation members for no reason whatsoever. As far as I recall, they've said and done nothing to you whatsoever. There was no reason for you to attack Alex Pierce. But I understand your frustration with losing matches can get to someone. What you don't know about me is unlike you, I didn't take years away from wrestling; I continued my ass to wrestle even during the losses I was getting Chris.

Leaving the wrestling business to come back then solved nothing, and I already knew that, so the only proper time off I had was when I was burned and when my dad died, but I always came back with a purpose. I'm already mentally stronger than you in that alone after all the torture I've had to go through. I have my reasons for attacking Xander the way I did, and he will get his explanation when the PPV comes around. What's your excuse for attacking Alex Pierce? You can easily find a fucking way to better yourself by learning from your mistakes and not letting losses get to you so much.

Sure, we are all here to win and lose matches, and sure, I've been angry and frustrated at losses at times, but I deal with them like a duck on water because I can cope with losing and still have the time of my life wrestling in this sport. But I listened to the video you did on Asher Hayes on how you want to be dangerous, which I had to do back when Minerva was around because she was right; I was weak, and that lit a fire up my ass to motivate myself to do something about it. You need to do that instead of crying and moaning about it.

I have no problems, Chris, to show you how dangerous I genuinely am. We've gone the opposite way of me being somewhat nice; although I am a vicious, mean bastard, you've gone the route of being an asshole. It takes time to discover your dangerous instinct, but you said Asher won a world title, and other belts he won don't matter. Does that mean your Underground title win you got years ago doesn't matter? Is your title achievement irrelevant?

That's so god damn stupid, they matter a lot in the business you fucking idiot. I might be a brutal, ruthless asshole, but even I don't discredit the achievements other wrestlers have made. I even acknowledged that Kandis was a great wrestler, and I hated her guts more than anyone in SCW when she was around. I've fought Asher Hayes many times, including being my tag partner and world title opponent, and I made the man bleed, which has been broken many times before.

I guess you didn't know that. I mean, sure, I didn't care for winning the World Title last time, but that's because I was more focused on unleashing war on Kandis for something she did years ago to stab me in the back than winning a title. I also get it. I also wrestle to not lose myself completely, and I can't say anything about that since wrestling is also a way to let my anger out. I want to fucking destroy and beat you down and show you how I deal with things, but there's a reason why I'm going for the World Title, and you're not. It's because I don't see a single ounce of passion in you wanting to go for specific titles or you want to be a wrestler more than letting anger out to live up to a legacy.

Sure, I get everything to prove and nothing to lose business you threw out. Still, I don't either before this World Title match as a loss won't affect me to wrestle in Germany for the world title, but this is for you to prove how much you want to be a wrestler and want to be a champion because you do Chris and you can't deny that. I will show you how much of a man I can be when I beat you down and win the match because you don't have anything to target or go for at the PPV. 

You can say all those things, but they mean nothing if you don't have other goals in wrestling. I'm not letting doubt come across me and the world title match. Josh and Xander can say all they want about me not being a worthy title contender, but I will show them why I am when they come to Germany, that's for sure. I was so upset when Josh Hudson tried to steal my World Title shot, thinking I had no chance, and for him to blast me to say I'm undeserving made me sick. I cried in the back because I thought I'd never get a shot for the world title in my country that I wanted to win so fucking badly. Of course, it got cleared up, but it still hurt. But now I will go and break and make Josh bleed for it like Xander as well. Plus, I knew the German fans would riot if I didn't participate in that World Title match in Germany.

That's the motivation I have for going to Germany in my hometown to win a world title. That could be something you could consider, as well as wanting the passion of winning a title in your home state. That's how and why I'm going to win the match. Maybe that's the motivational speech you need, bitch because I may have adapted my strategy, but I still will beat the hell out of you, and I embrace the hell of Josh Hudson getting in the ring to beat me down. I will win because I can, and I will due to the massive amount of motivation I have going into a World Title match that I've never ever had in my life."